tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21418107849072136322024-03-12T18:33:10.568-07:00Parenthood PathKristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.comBlogger111125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-17148503680548331002014-02-14T09:56:00.001-08:002014-02-14T09:56:53.394-08:00Happy Valentine's Day 2014!<div style="text-align: center;">
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<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">for me to post cute photos of my kid, especially on Valentine's Day.)</span></i></div>
Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-54393483382384345142013-02-14T16:27:00.002-08:002013-02-14T16:28:41.592-08:00An Infinite Love?A few weeks ago, D and I were playing and he kind of randomly said, "Know what, Momma?"<br />
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He took a deep breath, stretched his arms way out to his sides, and cupped his little hands.<br />
"I love you THHHIIIISS much!!"<br />
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<b>Happy Valentine's Day 2013!</b></div>
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(Here he was in <a href="http://parenthoodpath.blogspot.com/2012/02/my-funny-valentine.html" target="_blank">2012</a>, <a href="http://parenthoodpath.blogspot.com/2011/02/sweet-valentine.html" target="_blank">2011</a>, and on <a href="http://parenthoodpath.blogspot.com/2010/02/heart-felt.html" target="_blank">his first Valentine's Day</a>)</div>
<br />Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-66976797452524793402012-11-14T11:40:00.001-08:002012-11-14T11:40:03.023-08:00Adoption Interview Project 2013: Akers of Love<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I have said before - and I'll say it again - that I have learned SO much about adoption by reading about the experiences of others' through their blogs. Therefore, I am really grateful for the initiative of people like Heather over at <a href="http://www.productionnotreproduction.com/" target="_blank">ProductionNotReproduction </a> for coordinating the </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><a href="http://www.productionnotreproduction.com/2012/11/adoption-blogger-interview-project.html" target="_blank">Adoption Interview Project</a>, which is a wonderful collaboration of bloggers from throughout the adoption constellation. I had fun <a href="http://parenthoodpath.blogspot.com/2011/11/open-adoption-interview-project-2011.html" target="_blank">participating last year</a>, and did again this in 2012.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><b><br /></b>Don't be too impressed...I've already stopped doing 10-4 Good Buddy. I loved the idea and meeting people, but it was too much...especially with our new, little guy.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">I usually blog during naptime, but again, don't be too impressed, because sometimes I choose to blog instead of doing what I really should be doing, cleaning, laundry, preparing dinner, etc.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><br />But the main reason I blog is to jot down things I want to remember about my family...mainly my boys. So a special event or something funny my two year old says are great motivations for me to sit down and write a post. I know I need to write another post when my husband or mom say, "You haven't written a post in a while..."<br /><b><br /></b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">I'm not sure I'm looking for it to evolve. I don't want to be motivated by how many followers I have or who is reading my blog...although it has been a huge blessing to meet some lovely ladies through the blog world! My focus is to record our family stories...sometimes a project or recipe I think is worth sharing...and if other's are blessed by what I write, that's a bonus.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Well, the main difference is that when I was dreaming of becoming a mama, I pictured my children to look like my husband and me. Adoption caused me to break the mold of what I thought our family would like and I love how my family looks! I pray that others..especially those who are struggling with infertility...will see our family and see how wonderful a family grown through adoption can be.<br /><br /><b>Your faith is obviously a guiding force in your life. How do you think it impacted your adoptions? How do you think it impacts your parenting?</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">It's interesting that you asked this questions because adoption/infertility and parenting have been the two areas of my life that have grown my faith the most and made me realize my enormous need to completely depend on God.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">My faith impacts every aspect of my life. Although I fail miserably at times, my desire is to have God be the driving force in every action, word and decision I make. I remember saying over and over to my husband during both of our adoptions, "I can't imagine doing any of this without a relationship with Godt." Regardless of the disappointments {and we have had our fair share}, I always had hope that everything would work out according to His perfect plan for our family. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">With parenting, it's a daily battle between allowing my selfishness and flesh to take over and allowing God to lead me with my parenting choices. Parenting is so hard. When I begin my day in prayer asking God to help me be the mom He wants me to be for Max and Sam, my day goes so much better than going about my day on my own.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><span style="border-collapse: collapse; line-height: normal;">You're right! Our two adoptions are different. We had a relationship with Max's birthmom prior to him being born, we were in the delivery room to see him come into this world and have had consistent communication with her. We have also met Max's birthfather and many other member of his birth family. With Sam's birthmom, we met her the day Sam was born, we don't know much about her and may not every know anything about the birthfather. <br />
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It can be overwhelming to think about how everything is going to work out in the future. I pray that we can have healthy, safe relationships with both of our boys' birth families. We trust God that he will guide us in the way that is best for our family and everyone else involved. <br /><br />
I guess I really didn't answer your question, but I really have no idea what our future holds, but our desire is to have a relationship with both birth families.<br /><br />
<b>I believe that you and your husband are white parents raising children of color. Do you have any advice to share with others considering transracial adoption?</b><b><br /></b><br />
It's not a necessity, but find other families that look like yours. Maybe you can connect with other families that have done transracial adoptions through your agency. We are blessed that our very good friends have a transracial family through adoption. <br /><br />
Don't let it scare you. If that's God plan for you, He will give you the wisdom and grace to deal with any issues that come along.<br /><b> </b><br /><b>Is there something you think readers should know about you that they wouldn't learn from reading your blog?</b><b><br /></b><br />
I was a kindergarten teacher for 8 years. I loved it, but my dream job has always been to be a mom. Being a teacher to a room full of 5 and 6 year olds taught me so much about parenting and I am so thankful that God allowed me to have a part and hopefully make an impact in over 170 kid's lives.<br />
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Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-72177757411230372722012-08-12T18:06:00.003-07:002012-08-12T18:06:46.427-07:00Child, Parent, Child<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Have you ever heard that you never really appreciate your parents until you become a parent yourself? For me, that is not true.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">My mom is getting older. And as is typical with aging, she's become more rigid and perhaps a bit slower. Never-the-less, she gets up early every Monday morning to drive through traffic and come spend hours upon hours on the carpet playing trains, or reading stories, or blowing bubbles with her youngest grandchild. She volunteers enthusiastically to babysit (and often when we return, the laundry is folded, too!) With my wily little toddler, she shows such patience, energy, and sense of adventure, it overwhelms me. The are such clear manifestations of her love.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">When I don’t want to take a bath, don’t be mad and don’t embarrass me. Remember when I had to run after you making excuses and trying to get you to take a shower when you were just a girl? When you see how ignorant I am when it comes to new technology, give me the time to learn and don’t look at me that way... remember, honey, I patiently taught you how to do many things like eating appropriately, getting dressed, combing your hair and dealing with life’s issues every day... the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">As a parent, now I realize that the overwhelming love we feel for our children makes us vulnerable. Even when I can rationalize my son's behaviour as typical toddler antics, his frequent "daddy preference" or refusals of bedtime kisses and such slight rejections really hurt me. So now, when I roll may eyes at something my own mom has said for the umpteenth time, I try to remember how that small expression might wound her the way it wouldn't if it came from anyone else.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Isn't it ironic that I come here and <a href="http://www.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=2141810784907213632#editor/target=post;postID=404861091104120222" target="_blank">express strong disapproval</a> for a <a href="http://www.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=2141810784907213632#editor/target=post;postID=8675266024609466766" target="_blank">proposed reality tv show</a> that focuses on adoption while I myself blog away? I have been feeling kind of uncomfortable about this apparent inconsistency since I last wrote, so I've been thinking a lot about it. And I suppose there <i>is</i> a case to be made that my reaction was hypocritical given how much I've shared about our son, his birth mom, and how our family was built.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">First, and most important, I think, is that on this blog, someone who has the best interest of my son, his birth mom, and our whole family at heart has editorial control - me. Conversely, I think it is safe to assume that on a reality tv show, editorial decisions are based on what will drive viewership and profits; the more drama, the better. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Next, since I began blogging, I've become increasingly concerned about over-sharing and relating parts of my son's story (or his birth mother's) that aren't mine to share. When I look back now on some of my posts about our match and his birth, I cringe, wondering if I've revealed things they would - at some point in their lives - rather I hadn't. Obviously, that relates to my concern about a child who cannot give consent to participate in an adoption show. But you know what? Much of their story is <i>my story</i>, too. There is a lot of overlap. I think it would be sad if my concern kept me from sharing the parts of my experience - <i>our</i> - experience that might be helpful to others. So, to address the concern about telling stories that are other peoples' rather than mine, I am increasingly cautious and aware about keeping some things private or labeling my feelings and experiences as my own, etc.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Last, even unsuccessful television programs are watched by thousands and thousands of people. On-the-other-hand, this blog is followed closely only by friends and family. I know that occasionally others drop by, and I welcome that! But generally, anyone who comes here either has some connection to us or to adoption. It's hard for me to imagine someone teasing my son on the schoolyard because of something they learn here, while I couldn't confidently say the same if we elected to take part in a nationally-broadcast tv show.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What do you think? Does my reasoning make sense, or am I just making excuses? Do I have more in common with the producers of a reality tv show about adoption than I'd like to admit? Would it be different if<i> I</i> was trying to profit from my writing, as some adoption bloggers do? And how do you handle blogging or otherwise sharing potentially sensitive information about others' in your life?</span>Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-4048610911041202222012-07-24T17:30:00.000-07:002012-07-24T19:01:57.185-07:00Soap Box<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
<i><span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">So, below is what I drafted as a response to the <a href="http://parenthoodpath.blogspot.com/2012/07/why-no-i-havent-abandoned-this-blog.html" target="_blank">interesting inquiry</a> we received awhile ago about whether we wanted to take part in a reality tv show about adoption. Truth-be-told, I never sent it because it felt a little harsh to me and I wanted some time to see if my view changed. It hasn't. But, I have suppressed the urge to unleash my high horse on some poor production assistant. </span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Ha! I suppose we should really take our slideshow off of YouTube; our beautiful son D’s been home with us since October 2009. (Ironically, we were matched shortly after I posted the video, though his birth mom didn’t see it until after she met us.) So, with a precious 2.5 year old son, we clearly no longer fit the profile of the people you are seeking to feature.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Matching, being present for D’s birth, supporting his birth mom through the experience, and then bringing our son home were the most wonderful, scary, intense, emotional days of my life! The show you are developing will undoubtedly be dramatic.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I must share, however, that I have serious ethical concerns about it. Though I believe you will indeed strive to “do all [you] can to make the experience as positive and safe as possible for the adoptive parents and expectant mother,” bringing reality TV into such a sensitive situation at best will thwart the emotions and behaviors of the adults involved. At worst, it will be unduly coercive to expectant parents making incredibly difficult and important decisions. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Even if all adult parties use sound judgment to fully consent to participate, no account is being made for the stars of the show, the tiny individuals at the center of the adoption constellation: the babies. Of course, they cannot consent to participate, and we cannot guess now how having such intimate and private details of their arrivals in the world featured on television might impact the children in five, ten, or fifteen years. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">My husband and I have a really good, loving open adoption with D’s birth mom. Had we received your email when she was expecting her baby and we were matched, we might have been excited to participate in your project. But since then, we’ve all learned a lot more about open adoption – and we’ve lived it. We have seen how emotionally complex it is ourselves, and we are beginning to understand that for our son. I am sure you will find other families willing to take part, but please, please consider whether this is really an appropriate situation to expose to and through the media.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Thank you for taking my concerns seriously. If you are interested in learning more about the ethics of adoption, please feel free to contact me. Even better (since I’m no expert), investigate:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">What do you think? How would you respond if you were in our shoes? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">I know that adoption is a super sensitive subject for all of the parties involved, however, through this series, we are hoping to depict the adoption process as honestly as possible so people have a better understanding of the challenges, decisions, joy and love that comes with the journey of becoming parents. Maybe we can offer inspiration for a couple or expecting mother considering adoption!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, "Times New Roman", serif;">Our production company, [company removed] as well as the [network removed] takes this matter very seriously and will do all we can to make the experience as positive and safe as possible for the adoptive parents and expectant mother. Also, please note that we are partnered with and have the support of The National Council for Adoption as well as the National Campaign to Prevent Teen Pregnancy.</span></div>
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</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">(Here's my guy<a href="http://parenthoodpath.blogspot.com/2011/02/sweet-valentine.html" target="_blank"> last year</a> and on his<a href="http://parenthoodpath.blogspot.com/2010/02/heart-felt.html" target="_blank"> first Valentine's</a> Day too.)</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: red; font-size: large;"><b><br />
</b></span></div>Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-31201289140935148782012-01-04T14:42:00.000-08:002012-01-04T14:42:42.097-08:00OAR#33: Mommas' Boy, or Practicing What I PreachHeather over at <a href="http://www.productionnotreproduction.com/" target="_blank">ProductionNotReproduction</a> offers a new prompt for <a href="http://www.productionnotreproduction.com/2011/12/open-adoption-roundtable-33.html" target="_blank">OAR#33</a>. She says, "The Open Adoption Roundtable is a series of occasional writing prompts about open adoption...It's designed to showcase of the diversity of thought and experience in the open adoption community." This one is:<br />
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This year I learned that someone else can call my darling boy "son" and he can call her "momma," and I'm okay with that.<br />
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I've allude here before that after a long stretch of not hearing from her, we have reconnected with D's birth mother, V. It began with a phone call and then a flurry of loving and honest texts and telephone conversations in late summer. Then when she suggested we come to her small city and spend the day with her, we jumped at the chance. After all, we hadn't seen her since just a few weeks after our son was born.<br />
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The visit went really, really well. We all admitted how nervous and excited we were, and there were a few moments of stiff jitters, but soon we began sharing photos - us of D over the months, and V of herself as a child - and talking about our shared hopes and dreams for this boy. <br />
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V indicated that she's taken the big step of disclosing her placement with several important people in her life, and indeed, we were honored that she introduced us to her new roommates. Her life continues to be tumultuous, but she expressed again and again how important we all are to her and that - even though it is sometimes difficult - she wants to be a part of D's life and for him to be part of hers.<br />
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Before we arrived, V shared concern about how D would respond to her. Would he remember her, or indicate any kind of special connection? Frankly, I was worried too. He was (and still is) a toddler who takes awhile to warm up to people. He clings to me and especially to M, checking new situations and unfamiliar people out. I worried that V had unrealistic expectations about how comfortable he'd be with her after such a long separation. <br />
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In fact, he was timid at first, but she wisely held back a bit and he quickly got comfortable. Before long, he was his bubbly self. In fact, perhaps he did intuit their special connection, because he let her hold and carry him much sooner and longer than anyone else he doesn't spend a lot of time with.<br />
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The four of us headed off to the county fair. It was fun! We all - especially D - marveled at the colors, and sounds, and the throngs of interesting people. Of course, the kid loved seeing real cows, and chickens, and bunnies. V walked around a tiny ring with the tiny boy on his first tiny pony ride.<br />
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As the heat of the day mellowed and the arcade lights began to flicker on, V bought D his first cotton candy. "Here, sweetie, Mommy has a treat for you," she said, as she extended a sticky wad toward his grinning face. He looked at me a little confused, then lunged toward the sweet treat. <br />
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I said something to the effect of, "That's right, D. I'm your mommy <em>and </em>V is your mommy!" <br />
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Later in the evening, we all met up with V's roommates. "D!" she said, "Where's your momma?" To the obvious delight of V and her friends, D pointed at her. <br />
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And you know what? It was weird. To be completely honest, I had to take a deep breath and remind myself that this was testing some of the things I believe most deeply about open adoption. Since then, I've thought about those exchanges and discussed them a bit with others. The fact is, D does have two mothers, two mommies. But this was a new test, and I found that sometimes my heart (and insecurities?) makes it a challenge to practice what I preach. That was something important that I learned about my open adoption in 2011.<br />
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Standing there, with the smell of dust and popcorn in the air, and his darling birth mother bouncing him in her arms and beaming with pride, I knew that what he or anyone else calls us doesn't change who we are to him. We each play important but different roles in his life.<br />
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I remember from childhood - and sometimes still feel - the "magic of Christmas." So I've been thinking a lot about how to create that for my son. Though we aren't religious, we celebrate by spending time with family, consuming (too much!) good food and drink, enjoying the beautiful decorations and festive music, and exchanging gifts. I want to be deliberate about building traditions now that will become meaningful and special to D (and manageable for his parents).*<br />
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One we started this year is a "secular Advent calendar." We're calling it the <a href="http://www.gardeners.com/Woodland-Cabin-Advent-Calendar/37-645,default,pd.html" target="_blank">Christmas Cabin</a>. In addition to the little animals behind each door, D's loved discovering small notes, each relating an activity or occasionally a small gift. <br />
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Because I believe a big part of Christmas' magic is about giving to others, as he grows older, I plan for the activities to be a bit more altruistic. For example, I envision adding "Sunset hike and trash pick up," "Help at the food pantry," or "Take treats to old folks." But he's still a bit young for those things. (Right now, if a Christmas Cabin note said, "Buy a goat," D would be quite upset that Billy was helping a family in Uganda rather than in the backyard"!)<br />
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For now, mostly we've incorporated things we would have done anyway during this busy month. By now he's got a pile of notes, and for the last few nights, after opening a new one, he has rifled through the older ones, asking me to read them, too. It's been a nice way to remember the little things we've already done together over the last several weeks that are making this time of year so special.<br />
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- Read (and sniff) "<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Sweet-Smell-Christmas-Scented-Storybook/dp/0375826432" target="_blank">The Sweet Smells of Christmas</a>"<br />
- Dinner in his tent in the living room<br />
- Watch "<a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0075988/" target="_blank">Emmet Otter</a>" together<br />
- Rudolf slippers<br />
- Turning the exterior house lights on<br />
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- Stickers on the window<br />
- Bath with green and red bubble (warning: turns the water brown!)<br />
- Go to our town's holiday parade<br />
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- Santa and snowman finger puppets<br />
- Getting our Christmas tree<br />
- Celebrate Scandinavian Christmas with Granddad and cousins<br />
- Having a holiday music dance party<br />
- Hanging our stockings on the bookshelf (alas, no fireplace)<br />
- Spark of Love - donate toys and visit the fire station<br />
- Drive through "candy cane lane"<br />
- Placing the star on top of our tree<br />
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This year, I was paired with an adoptive parent who I'd never "met" before, <a href="http://pursuingparenthood.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">Lisa at <em>Consumed by Love</em></a>. She and her husband are the dotting parents of Olivia, who just celebrated her fourth birthday and is eagerly anticipating becoming a big sister. They have an open adoption with Olivia's birth mother, Miss Samantha. <br />
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As I read through <em>Consumed by Love</em> for the first time, I recognized some significant difference in our lives and some remarkable similarities. Lisa is thoughtful and caring and very dedicated to her family and community. I learned from her experiences and enjoyed getting to know her, and I think you will, too. <br />
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Really, I just wish we lived close enough that I could have invited her over for a nice cup of tea and a long chat while our kids played together! The questions I asked Lisa are in bold.<br />
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<strong>What are a few things you'd like anyone new to your blog to know about you?</strong><br />
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I’m an adoptive mom, a Natural Family Planning advocate (and teacher), and an infertile. I believe the path that led us to becoming a family was orchestrated by God and was for our own good. We learned things along the way…important lessons that make us a stronger couple and better parents.<br />
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<strong>It's clear that your faith is an important part of your life. How has it influenced your family building? Your parenting?</strong><br />
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My faith does permeate my whole life, and it is a part of all of our decisions. I always assumed that we’d have a houseful of kids and be one of those families that witnessed to our faith and openness to life by having a large family. But God had other ideas, obviously. So, likely, our family will be much smaller than I had envisioned, but it is a witness to our faith in other ways. We witness to our “openness to life” by being open to the children God sends us, however he chooses to send them. Right now, that means being a multi-racial family anticipating the adoption of another racially-different child. In the future, our openness to life may very well lead us to foster care and/or adoption through the foster care system.<br />
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My child is the smartest, strongest and most athletically gifted kid of her age that I’ve ever seen, and that was all genetic. She is naturally gifted…we didn’t give her any of that. We did give her an environment where those gifts could shine through. That very fact makes me ponder the potential of every child and imagine a world where every child can grow up in a home where he or she is safe and loved and can explore and develop his or her unique gifts. These are the kind of thoughts that make me think we may become foster parents someday. My heart hurts for all the kids I’ve seen who have been abandoned, abused or neglected during those years when they most need security, support and stability. Through our faith, we see that infertility has given us the “freedom” to adopt and, perhaps, the freedom to be available to be foster parents. We just have to discern where we are being called. <br />
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Our faith also influences our parenting and how we pass on our values to our daughter. Olivia knows that God is in control of the “baby brother or sister” department, and she asks Him regularly to send her one (while trying to be patient in waiting). She also knows her birth story and understands God’s part in bringing us together as a family. We talk to her about kids who don’t have two parents, and kids whose parents can’t afford all the fun things she enjoys. We’ve used these lessons to teach her about generosity and sharing what we have with others. As we do every year before birthday/Christmas time, we recently went through her things to decide, together, what toys she wanted to keep and which ones we’d donate to “kids who don’t have a lot of toys.” I was amazed, this year, at all the things she was willing to give away to other kids. I think these are important lessons to learn early, and our faith and the way we live it helps mold her worldview to include a love for the poor and a desire to be involved in charitable organizations.<br />
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<strong>What about being a family that is multi-racial and built by adoption has surprised you?</strong><br />
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First of all, I’m surprised by how many other families there are like us. I see them everywhere, and I don’t recall having noticed them before we became a multi-racial family.<br />
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Second, even though families like ours are more commonplace now, I’m surprised at all the double-takes I get when I’m out with Olivia…particularly when people hear her call me Mommy. She is very light-skinned, but her hair stands out, and I often wonder what kind of things are running through the minds of people when they stare at our obvious differences. To be honest, it isn’t until I notice them staring that I even REMEMBER the differences. We’ve been a family since Olivia came screaming into the world, so I don’t SEE her as different in my mind.<br />
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I’ve developed a tendency to look for diversity in her dolls and books, to try to expose her to images of people who share her ethnic heritage. I think allowing her to experience diversity will be more challenging for us as she grows, since we live in a rural and very homogenous area. Olivia knows she’s different, but for now it doesn’t bother her at all. We’ll see how that changes as she grows older.<br />
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<strong>You are currently waiting to adopt another child. How have your views about adoption changed since you were matched with your daughter's birth mom? Have those views influenced anything about your current plans?</strong><br />
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When Olivia’s birth mom was making her adoption plan, we were understandably nervous. I remember thinking that my ideal would be a semi-closed adoption where we’d have her mailing information and would send regular photos and updates and maybe the occasional phone call to keep her informed about Olivia’s life. Visits never even occurred to me. I wanted to keep some contact so Olivia would have that connection when she got older and wanted to know more, but I certainly didn’t want her to be a regular part of our life.<br />
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Oh, how that has changed! There are many things about Samantha’s life that we want to shield from Olivia’s knowledge for quite some time. However, we love seeing her regularly and spending time with her. Olivia knows that she grew in “Miss Samantha’s belly” and she sees her as her very special friend. I think that relationship will only help her as she grows and learns more about who she is. <br />
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I have an overwhelming appreciation for Samantha and the sacrifices she made to give Olivia the life she wanted her to have. She seems to have an overwhelming appreciation for me and for Joe and truly enjoys her time with us and with Olivia. It just seems natural to us to include her as part of the family as much as we can.<br />
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With our second child, we are hoping to have an open adoption from the start. We are not nearly so apprehensive the second time around, and we’ve had the benefit of reading and learning so much more over the course of the last four years. We see the benefit of openness to both the child and the birth mother, and we think that relationship is worthwhile and worth fighting to maintain.<br />
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<strong>An issue with which many bloggers struggle is determining what details of their lives that involve other people are appropriate to share, and what aren't. As a mom in an open adoption, how do you determine what is your story to tell, and what details to withhold because they are your daughter's, her birth mother's, or someone else's story?</strong><br />
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This is a hard question for me because I often struggle with how much to tell. My blog is a place for me to work through my own thoughts and emotions when it comes to some of the frustrations and challenges of this whole parenting and adoption business, so it seems natural just to tell it like it is. However, any time I run into a story that starts telling itself in what I’d term “identifying details,” I try to back off and go vague. While Olivia’s birthmother isn’t what we’d call “computer savvy” (she joked the other day with Olivia that it took her 10 minutes to figure out how to turn on her friend’s laptop), I would never want her to find our site and be embarrassed over what I’d shared about her. At the same time, she’s pretty open with us and with others about ALL of her dirty laundry, so I do feel like I can share a little without overstepping. I think part of that depends on the personality of the birth mother.<br />
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The FACT of Olivia’s adoption is another story. There are schools of thought out there that say that her adoption story is hers to tell…and that is true, but it’s also our story of how our family was made. And it’s a GOOD story! There’s no question she was adopted, nor will there ever be a question about it. Anyone who sees her and us will guess as much. So leading with that information makes it seem normal, commonplace and ordinary. Our family was built through adoption, and there is no shame in that. Sometimes, I think the idea of withholding that bit of information seems to put adoptive families into the proverbial closet. And we don’t want to be there. Adoption, even with its issues of loss, was and is ultimately a joyful thing for us, and I think being open about it helps witness to that…not just for us but also for Olivia. It helps HER to know that she’s special and loved and that her story is a good and happy one and she should never be ashamed of it.<br />
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The details of her birth mother’s situation at the time, of course, are things that we’ll share with her as she’s old enough to understand. THOSE are hers to share as she chooses. But the fact that she was adopted and she has a birth mommy named Samantha…that’s easy stuff for all of us to share.<br />
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Honestly, as she grows older, Olivia may decide that reading through details of her potty training mishaps will be more embarrassing than reading about her adoption. <br />
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<strong>How do you envision your blog evolving in the future?</strong><br />
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Again, it’s hard to say for sure. Right now, the blog seems to be more about life and parenting than about adoption. But when that second child comes along, he or she will come with his or her own adoption story and birthmother issues that will inevitably cause me to examine adoption issues and talk about them more here. Mostly, the blog has always been about what is on my mind, from infertility to adoption to foster care to the best way to get your preschooler to go to bed on time. I don’t imagine that will change much.<br />
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<strong>Thanks, Lisa! I look forward to following your family' story and wish you all the best.</strong>Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-68272524517278275372011-10-26T10:42:00.001-07:002011-10-26T11:07:49.275-07:00Attention All Adoption Bloggers!<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">Yah</span>, I'm talking about <a href="http://thosetwodaddies.blogspot.com/">you</a>, and <a href="http://growfamilygrow.wordpress.com/">you</a>, and <a href="http://thethompsonbaby.blogspot.com/">you</a>, and of course anyone else who blogs who is interested in adoption.<br /><br /><br />I've linked to <a href="http://www.productionnotreproduction.com/">Heather's site</a> many times before, and now I'm doing it again. She has done a wonderful job of building a online (and real life!) community of those interested in adoption. Right now, she's coordinating an <a href="http://www.productionnotreproduction.com/p/open-adoption-bloggers-interview.html">Adoption Interview Project</a>. I am planning to participate, and I hope you will too. It promises to be a great way we can all continue to learn from each other.<br /><br />Note: the deadline to register is Friday, October 28<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">th</span>!Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-47467386503846084792011-10-21T09:58:00.000-07:002011-10-22T21:41:44.863-07:00So, So Much<div><p>Judging from the frequency of my posts of late, one might guess that not much is going on and I have little to say. Au contraire! Things have been jumping over here, and there is a great deal I'd like to share!! </p><ul><li>D's second birthday festivities.</li></ul><ul><li><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">All </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">of the amazing new things he's learning and doing...and so many of the cute, sweet things he's already outgrown.</span></li><br /><li>Our boy's excellent adjustment to daycare. </li><br /><li>The ups and downs of a friend's recent match and placement that has got me thinking a lot about the losses and gains, disappointments and hopes inherent in adoption. </li><br /><li>Some really great posts on other blogs I feel anyone interested in open adoption should read.</li><br /><li>And perhaps most important: our reconnection with V!!</li></ul><p>Those are just some of the things I want to write about. Alas, I continue to lack time and focus. So, I'll just throw up a few photos of our big boy enjoying a trip to the "pumpkin patch" with his beloved Grandmom.</p><p>I hope to be back soon!</p></div><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEga6affJs0ExL0OCUty8p4yTnw2o97kOhtc_ZMd5J5k6_TqELx_cxWYp9I77ITDvmrQqGavHIqVbMKX0oQuR008QWsg4kFOQnrARg7XO6vhr4ehDU2aLIPelKscr1tjbw9rmObmeANpSYTm/s1600/IMG_0969.JPG" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 267px; height: 400px; text-align: center; display: block; cursor: pointer;" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5666338618654057522" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEga6affJs0ExL0OCUty8p4yTnw2o97kOhtc_ZMd5J5k6_TqELx_cxWYp9I77ITDvmrQqGavHIqVbMKX0oQuR008QWsg4kFOQnrARg7XO6vhr4ehDU2aLIPelKscr1tjbw9rmObmeANpSYTm/s400/IMG_0969.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjRBIPb6ILy0OlIooJAq2qo5MCjt7xb_zPZNbcYY8PSfuBZMo3MrrKzj2xMvb21_HHDdka94JnfzZbvphGUbjlnKi5CfcONjiRAqny7SKGypGj-_AIlGvWuhCiHSXIVPleNotehsnwocyUN/s1600/IMG_0923.JPG" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 400px; height: 267px; text-align: center; display: block; cursor: pointer;" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5666338532741801746" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjRBIPb6ILy0OlIooJAq2qo5MCjt7xb_zPZNbcYY8PSfuBZMo3MrrKzj2xMvb21_HHDdka94JnfzZbvphGUbjlnKi5CfcONjiRAqny7SKGypGj-_AIlGvWuhCiHSXIVPleNotehsnwocyUN/s400/IMG_0923.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNSWiL4c8t6Bzkh6JLuuQx6Cj74-AkjhgOh_PF5HZSX7lLu6CwFI-0gUO7LZCD-D4-HPxkrvNMn_Pk_KIxf_LDk6vuZGJWYSW-a85J39ahKKRH1I0Coe5Z-SMT3ZGC7_Nxn3wPGpqJlMEJ/s1600/IMG_1042.JPG" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 400px; height: 267px; text-align: center; display: block; cursor: pointer;" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5666338396560949586" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNSWiL4c8t6Bzkh6JLuuQx6Cj74-AkjhgOh_PF5HZSX7lLu6CwFI-0gUO7LZCD-D4-HPxkrvNMn_Pk_KIxf_LDk6vuZGJWYSW-a85J39ahKKRH1I0Coe5Z-SMT3ZGC7_Nxn3wPGpqJlMEJ/s400/IMG_1042.JPG" /></a></div></div>Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-14571536976462255222011-09-25T14:22:00.000-07:002011-09-25T19:00:04.407-07:00OAR#29: Accidents Happen?<div>Heather, who is the Hostess with the Most-ess of the <a href="http://www.productionnotreproduction.com/2011/09/open-adoption-roundtable-29.html">Open Adoption Roundtable </a> over at <a href="http://www.productionnotreproduction.com/">ProductionNotReproduction</a>, prompted:<br /><br /><em>Our group is growing and a lot of us haven't "met" each other yet. So point us to a favorite post on your blog. It doesn't need to be about adoption. And tell us a little bit about why you picked the one you did.<br /></em><br />Of course, it's hard for me to decide which one to select! So I'll just share the one that came to mind when I first read the prompt. It's called <a href="http://parenthoodpath.blogspot.com/2009/06/accidents-of-birth.html">Accidents of Birth</a>.<br /><br />Crafted just a few weeks before we were contacted by the woman who became Dylan's birth mom, it's my "what I did on my summer vacation" post. Part of why I like it is because my own life is now so different than it was when we took that wonderful trip to Vietnam.<br /><br />For what it's worth, I suspect this post came to mind because I still think about those kids - and children like them around the world - a lot, and also a lot about the issues I touched upon in the post.<br /><br />Oh! And here's a link to <a href="http://www.placeworld.com/projects/mong.html">M's photo gallery </a>from the trip! This photo is the one that connects most closely with what I wrote so long ago.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrtkbKKtVLfyQHfe4yonMoBYrMlbgnV3FBrLwzFEBl5VX0ySf-rLgSVUcVnpj0U1QAnUtVtVndYddbx6qrzzrDSh8cL0Id-VLSeS8MJLe657tTfyxoUYsS6zCNLNrnY5bBSLZUVAsX0XoA/s1600/8219-mong-kids.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; width: 400px; height: 267px; text-align: center; display: block; cursor: pointer;" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5656415060396985106" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrtkbKKtVLfyQHfe4yonMoBYrMlbgnV3FBrLwzFEBl5VX0ySf-rLgSVUcVnpj0U1QAnUtVtVndYddbx6qrzzrDSh8cL0Id-VLSeS8MJLe657tTfyxoUYsS6zCNLNrnY5bBSLZUVAsX0XoA/s400/8219-mong-kids.jpg" /></a><br /></div>Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-43895081786004293842011-09-23T22:04:00.000-07:002011-09-23T22:16:53.030-07:00I Have A Problem<div>Hi, I'm Kristin, and I can't figure out how to use Blogger!</div><div> </div><div>For probably, like, the fifth time since I started blogging here a little more than two years ago, I just unintentionally published a post way too soon.</div><div> </div><div>Yah, I was able to delete it, so most readers might not even have realized my inanity. But for my nearest and dearest who actually receive emails of each and every one of my posts, it must be really annoying. So, I'm SORRY. I really do apologize for drawing your attention to something not (yet) worth reading.</div><div> </div><div>The last couple of times, I think the issue has been with the labels function. If I press <enter> after entering the labels before selecting another one, rather than going back into editing mode, Blogger publishes whatever I've got. Urghh! You'd think since I've figured this out, I'd be able to avoid it. But it's just such a reflex to hit the enter key when I'm done with a line of type!!</enter></div><div> </div><div>Every now and again I run across another blogger cursing about not being able to fix spacing or whatever, which makes me feel a bit less alone in my bloggy-clumsiness. But mostly, I feel really technically challenged.</div><div> </div><div>Does anyone have any ideas for how to help me use this technology more easily?</div>Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-9033034714976368342011-09-07T16:00:00.000-07:002011-09-07T21:14:32.492-07:00Ready? Set? Grow!Yesterday was Dylan's first day at daycare. He did great! His momma? Not so much.<br /><br /><br />I really do believe this is a great situation for him. The social interaction he will get and the new developmental adventures he will have will be good for him. He'll spend four mornings a week at a nearby family daycare, and then afternoons with his dad and one day a week with my mom. The daycare is run by a lovely and loving, experienced and professional woman and her two enthusiastic young assistants. He will be in a safe, nurturing environment and I have every confidence in their ability to take great care of him!<br /><br /><br /><p>To prepare him for the change, we took him to play there a few times in the last couple of weeks. After some initial timidity, he seemed very quickly to get comfortable there and with the other kids. (All of the riding cars and balls and other toys freshly available to him certainly helped!) He was ready.</p><br /><p>I'm not an overly sentimental person, so I was surprised by the anxiety and sense of loss that crept up on me as his big day approached. Afterall, I've been back to work for more than a year and he's spent lots of time being well cared for by others, particular his wonderful nanny all last school year.</p><br />But, he's always been at home, with his daddy just down the hall in his office. It was always easy to imagine exactly where my boy was, what he was doing, and what crazy antics he was up to. Now it feels like we're sending him off into the big wide world, out of our sphere of influence. No longer will we know of his every emotional ache and physical pain. No longer will we celebrate with him his every triumph.<br /><br /><br />So, yesterday morning, I shed a few tears. They came as I struggled to get him buckled in his car seat. He squirmed and protested, and I felt the sting come to my eyes. I want so much for the few minutes I will get to spend with my child each morning to be enjoyable - for both of us - and this wasn't a good start to the new chapter.<br /><br />I remember judging harshly other mothers who've expressed angst over their kids going off to preschool or daycare. Come on, I thought. This is an important step in building the independence and self-confidence we want in our children.<br /><br /><br />As M. and I watched Dylan settled easily into his place at the table, surrounded by his new friends, watching attentively as a fun story was read to the group, I realized it isn't about <em>worrying </em>about how others will care for him. It's about <em>missing</em> him. And to be a good parent, there will be many, many more occasions when I will have to let go, for his sake, even when it's painful for me.<br /><br />Apparently, it isn't just Dylan who is growing.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4UBpxa8V3aKkZnW7WCtqfyo_gOro1tJci5fcdlKKE__54WmDe0DSY0JqNm9J4-ASr2TtyDru60JqYTDoqMNiz3mBWG2miaLciWf4M_6WomJDHU-lu5NJll-DQr8Nl_JmgZdrkaAS1hthI/s1600/First+Day+at+Margo%2527s.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5649757541578375522" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4UBpxa8V3aKkZnW7WCtqfyo_gOro1tJci5fcdlKKE__54WmDe0DSY0JqNm9J4-ASr2TtyDru60JqYTDoqMNiz3mBWG2miaLciWf4M_6WomJDHU-lu5NJll-DQr8Nl_JmgZdrkaAS1hthI/s400/First+Day+at+Margo%2527s.jpg" /></a>Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-76458063753294678362011-07-26T15:48:00.000-07:002011-07-26T16:06:51.179-07:00Early EducationYesterday, after I rocked Dylan and stood to put him in his crib for his nap, he pointed over my shoulder at a picture of V.<br /><br />"Momma," he said.<br /><br />"That's right. That's V., your birth mommy."<br /><br />"Belly," he said, drowsily.<br /><br />Clearly, he has been absorbing the little story I tell him from time to time about how he grew and grew in V.'s belly, and when he was ready, he popped out. And about how Mommy and Daddy were there and we were so happy to see him. Mommy, and Daddy and V. all hugged and hugged and kissed him, we loved him so much.<br /><br />So, I guess I'll need to work on how I tell him his birth and adoption story a bit more. We want to make sure it is easy, and age apprepropriate, and accurate, which feels like a tall order right now.<br /><br />I find it so helpful to learn the specifics of how other parents talk with their kids of diffferent ages about their adoptions. If you have any resources or ideas, please share them!<br /><br />One of my goals for this quickly fleeting summer was to create a Life Book that includes simple text and more photos of his birth relatives and of our time together around Dylan's arrival. I think it would be a helpful, and that he might come to treasure it. I haven't gotten around to it yet, but after Dylan made his interest apparent yesterday, I'm really motivated!Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-19036705081663944102011-07-24T21:01:00.000-07:002011-07-24T21:42:37.050-07:00Hairmageddon?Before<br /><br /><br /><br /><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIkPwsGbByhyphenhyphenm2kKAm6OQoqltiT-K58R_8O3rrell1tmanKZpfWxMFhdbNB7mXRATKlJQH_q5TjzaXD2MFSpk6tPP4DBywKsS5oHR8pPFW909q95-MCEoWMnMrKJZwXNArb-4B67T1Vvf6/s1600/Haircut+0711+Before.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5633136484084454114" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIkPwsGbByhyphenhyphenm2kKAm6OQoqltiT-K58R_8O3rrell1tmanKZpfWxMFhdbNB7mXRATKlJQH_q5TjzaXD2MFSpk6tPP4DBywKsS5oHR8pPFW909q95-MCEoWMnMrKJZwXNArb-4B67T1Vvf6/s400/Haircut+0711+Before.jpg" /></a> During</p><br /><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSROtbPSTv8rO1EyMJPsMIhIOC4DAO8cPTL-RYKWuj9PtZ16_PWMda_zgNUiZoisxk4SaeYbD93wwYtZmysmr97LNYAQd7wJt9iMW7ELL_pkFe8SVc_HlV9AsV-w-SkwVfoiWSJYLF8Gsm/s1600/Haircut+0711+during+2.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5633136051065480162" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSROtbPSTv8rO1EyMJPsMIhIOC4DAO8cPTL-RYKWuj9PtZ16_PWMda_zgNUiZoisxk4SaeYbD93wwYtZmysmr97LNYAQd7wJt9iMW7ELL_pkFe8SVc_HlV9AsV-w-SkwVfoiWSJYLF8Gsm/s400/Haircut+0711+during+2.jpg" /></a><br />After<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuiY75i3VqDjU7wkvm4vxdTq_Bg4rQ7ZUW3GeSqiXxqLU4aVGC4pSnOHHp7DkFwMlgoKwflXZNMjOPAeKf-djJ_Fk1XvivKsdD7bkGNkBjok7tRe5hFyR3LpmVqlqqzfG94B3xhd8BI8Vu/s1600/Haircut+0711+after+2.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5633135575129567810" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuiY75i3VqDjU7wkvm4vxdTq_Bg4rQ7ZUW3GeSqiXxqLU4aVGC4pSnOHHp7DkFwMlgoKwflXZNMjOPAeKf-djJ_Fk1XvivKsdD7bkGNkBjok7tRe5hFyR3LpmVqlqqzfG94B3xhd8BI8Vu/s400/Haircut+0711+after+2.jpg" /></a><br /><br />Shortly before Dylan's first birthday, M. and I made a major decision, a decision that to this day at least one family member calls "the disaster." We gave him a haircut. Bravely, M. was the chief stylist, and I was the chief distractor, providing toys and snacks to keep hands away from the clipping blades. I must say, I was impressed! M. did a really nice job: our kid's hair was even, neat, and no longer in his eyes. But, the sweet, sweet little curls at the nape of his neck were gone.</p><br /><p>So I should have anticipated ambivalent feelings when finally on Saturday we took him to get his first professional cut. </p><br /><p>I'd found a shop not far away that specializes in kids, and based on our last few home haircutting attempts, I thought it would be wise to find a stylist used to working with little squirmers. Indeed, we walked in and Dylan immediately gave an excited, "Whooooaaa!" and headed toward the train table. Then he noticed the red car and got even more delighted. It was easy to get him up and into the chair. The stylist worked quickly and within a few minutes, there was a little pile of soft, fine hair on the floor. </p><br /><p>And then it was done. And though the experience was successful - it went quickly, Dylan was too interested in all that was going on to fidget much, and our goal of getting what had become his fairly long and sloppy hair tidied up - I am really sad. Major disaster.</p><br /><p>Now he looks like a boy, ready for school. I miss my freespirited little toddler.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></p>Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-10624554230148805742011-07-19T16:14:00.000-07:002011-07-19T21:04:32.351-07:00The Sweetest SoundWitnessing Dylan's language development has been fascinating. I wish that I'd kept better track of it since he uttered his first intelligble word - ball! - about six months ago, because it seems like there are patterns, and then he'll totally surprise us.<br /><br /><br />When we were in Hawaii, M. and I were marveling how he seemed to be having some kind of linguistic developmental leap because each day, he surprised us with one or two new words we didn't know he knew, which was a much faster pace than before. M. confessed that he'd been keeping a list and that suddenly, it was quickly approaching 50 distinct words.<br /><br />At that point, we joked a lot about how one of the words Dylan didn't know yet was "mommy." He'd been saying "dad" for months, and when you asked him where mommy was, he'd clearly point at me. But he wasn't saying it, even as he approached 100 words.<br /><br /><br />For awhile, it didn't bother me that he wasn't calling me anything. I noticed that he wasn't saying any words that began with an mmm sound. I heard from several others who said that "mommy" was not among their kids' first words. And, there were plenty of other ways I knew Dylan was attached to me.<br /><br /><br />Nevertheless, as the days that he acquired other words accumulated, but there was still no "mommy," some self-doubts crept in. (Good grief, he spontaneously said "backpack" and umbrella"!) Secretly, I worried that he'd master his nanny's name before he'd call me mommy. I wondered if there just were too many other women with spots in his heart - his grandmother, his aunties, his birth mom - and if his lack of vocal identification was a sign that I really wasn't that special to him. I didn't want to make this about adoption, but...<br /><br /><br />Shortly after returning from vacation, I came home from work to Dylan clearly calling "Momma!" Now throughout the day, there are so, so many "mommas." There's the pointing-at-something he wants momma and the that-belongs-to-you momma. There's the please-pick-me-up-momma and the where-are-you momma. Oddly, there's the red-car momma, as any red vehicle apparently reminds him of my little cherry Honda. There's the good-morning momma and the please-read-to-me momma. One of my favorites is the out-of-the-blue "momma" accompanied by an oddly placed lip smack. And you know what? All of those mommas are the sweetest sound I've ever heard.Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-1827767628569660332011-07-05T14:15:00.000-07:002011-07-05T14:28:24.260-07:00Good Job?(Cue the melodrama...but this is a true story.)<br /><br />Big tears slid down my cheeks and into his crib as I look in on my sleeping son and breathe in his sweet breath. <em>I am shaken by the full realization that if we parent well, this little one will some day not need me.</em><br /><em></em><br />Oh, other mothers, how do you bare it?Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-82971917235067864092011-06-30T10:54:00.001-07:002011-06-30T11:09:40.790-07:00ghoti*Some say that children are little sponges, absorbing everything around them. Sometimes, it freaks me out a bit how much Dylan picks up without any effort on the part of the big heads around him. For example, he holds the pen of his EtchaD*odle between his thumb and index finger and "writes" with almost exactly the right posture. How did he learn that?!<br /><br />Yesterday, as we were growing frustrated with our attempts to get Dylan to eat the healthy things we'd provided him for lunch, I off-handedly asked M., "Do you think we should give him some *f*i*s*h?" I stealthily spelled out the word, hoping to avoid shifting the boy's attention from his fruit to one of his favorite snacks.<br /><br />Before M. could respond, Dylan exclaimed, "Blub! Blub! Blub!"...which is what he believes fish say.<br /><br />The thing is, I don't think I spell words around him that much, and I can't remember ever doing it for the little orange crackers. Clearly, I must have, because my son knew exactly what I was talking about!<br /><br />Freaky.<br /><br />*<em> gh</em> as in enou<em>gh</em>; <em>o</em> as in w<em>o</em>men; <em>ti</em> as in na<em>ti</em>on. (Isn't English a wacky language?)Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-30134359080454085302011-06-22T11:48:00.000-07:002011-06-22T22:33:43.741-07:00Happy Summer!<div align="center"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKLJSl7Uxy0OuFi018hQWp9GlHVC3WU9fLaLxPE9aLeYglgSo5WUeQdGG_l1WcwqW6_moxWIk3NZVqcsCnBYtuxVgmF6TNh2YMbiclMlqEBet8f68NMDsXrrTBV-RGVqAWJeEqYSUk-MuZ/s1600/Summer+with+D+and+M+0611.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5621275206750800754" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKLJSl7Uxy0OuFi018hQWp9GlHVC3WU9fLaLxPE9aLeYglgSo5WUeQdGG_l1WcwqW6_moxWIk3NZVqcsCnBYtuxVgmF6TNh2YMbiclMlqEBet8f68NMDsXrrTBV-RGVqAWJeEqYSUk-MuZ/s400/Summer+with+D+and+M+0611.jpg" /></a>Dylan and Daddy in the Garden<br />June 21, 2011<br /></div><br /><br /><div align="left">Yesterday, as we played in the garden through the long dusk, I felt a real kinship with my Scandinavian relatives who truly celebrate the shortest night of the year. I love summer!<br /></div><br /><div align="left">Though I know it wasn't official until yesterday, as someone whose calendar is closely tied to the academic year, my summer began shortly after graduation more than a month ago, and it will conclude at the end of August. So, I have already really been enjoying it.<br /></div><br /><div align="left">Here are a few things this season of sun means to me:</div><br /><div align="left"></div><div align="left">- <strong>Part-time work schedule</strong>. Most important, I have more time to spend with my boys. I also have more time to keep up with the laundry and all the household tasks that nag at me during the school year, which relieves pressure. It might even mean I'm a more regular blogger. (See! Two posts in two days! Don't get used to it...)</div><br /><div align="left">- <strong>Peaches!</strong> Our tree must have produced more than 200 of the sweetest, juiciest fruit. Alas, they all ripened in a three week period and are gone already. Fortunately, they freeze well and we'll have yummy smoothies for many months.<br /></div><br /><div align="left">- <strong>Summer Delicacies</strong><strong>.</strong> It's not just the fruit we grow ourselves that I love, it's all of summer's healthy, natural abundance. To me, summer tastes like sweet corn on the cob (with lots of butter and salt), lush watermelon, and strawberries on vanilla ice-cream. Ymmmm! BTW, Dylan's favorite food right now is watermelon and he's eating tons of it. If I go near the fridge, he starts exclaiming, "Melon! Melon!" Interestingly, he is also quite fixated on some of the citrus in our yard, and in a bit of verbal dyslexia, exclaims "Melon! Melon!" when he's really trying to say "Lemon! Lemon!"<br /><br />- <strong>Vacation.</strong> At the end of May, we spent nine whole days in Hawaii. Those who know M. and me know that we love traveling and have had some wonderful adventures in distant lands. What appealed most to us this year, however, was the notion of sitting on beach...without having to worry about whether the ice in our cocktails was safe to consume. So, we rented a little condo in the Poipu area of Kauai. My mom came with us, saying she was our au pair, and she did provide many hours of attention to her grandson so that M. and I could escape the responsibilities of parenthood for a bit. It was so much fun to sit in the warm water of a tide pool and watch Dylan splash around, declaring each volcanic rock "laawvah!" </div><br /><br /><div align="left"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEitCdBBi7bBG9-Te-tgTJjfSFvsSNZKMu180EE6xaDyTjc9g7kHJ6yyJ6KB6o7OBCIAwKej72rmUCaApiigSKIaw-2in2NrTPdM0Ffs-YDGUzfrHALlalDOMgBY9Ngaso7fMRkyD6_5r16P/s1600/D_and_M_tidepools_in_Hawaii_0511%255B1%255D.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5621197354211223010" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEitCdBBi7bBG9-Te-tgTJjfSFvsSNZKMu180EE6xaDyTjc9g7kHJ6yyJ6KB6o7OBCIAwKej72rmUCaApiigSKIaw-2in2NrTPdM0Ffs-YDGUzfrHALlalDOMgBY9Ngaso7fMRkyD6_5r16P/s400/D_and_M_tidepools_in_Hawaii_0511%255B1%255D.jpg" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKSUMk1BozONST9t4Ns-uUIKGniTADf5CEHG5PCdvNQY5VzQ-Rzk17TT7hFGPnfue8DVHxNipSWlhT4Hf3waBrDsBCQ4oJhY2HZ5BoxXk5IeAPkFmC7nGijJiEqjPlJfVs-7deNLO7fyhB/s1600/D_hiking_Waimea_0611%255B1%255D.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 266px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5621197421265604242" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKSUMk1BozONST9t4Ns-uUIKGniTADf5CEHG5PCdvNQY5VzQ-Rzk17TT7hFGPnfue8DVHxNipSWlhT4Hf3waBrDsBCQ4oJhY2HZ5BoxXk5IeAPkFmC7nGijJiEqjPlJfVs-7deNLO7fyhB/s400/D_hiking_Waimea_0611%255B1%255D.jpg" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhY88jn4ix0xLBJKmxM5PpMev352dmmpKacL9SVaOkPkM83Y-EK6jT2cp03iT9L3mctmmdKS0H-NJ5VyCOVJxsyb4f9-fAWB06XTNyAcazvq1f3xjyMuU07-5JYmNvDu1C9MTl3QN9iWVWU/s1600/Aloha_Family_0611%255B1%255D.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 275px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5621198572531010530" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhY88jn4ix0xLBJKmxM5PpMev352dmmpKacL9SVaOkPkM83Y-EK6jT2cp03iT9L3mctmmdKS0H-NJ5VyCOVJxsyb4f9-fAWB06XTNyAcazvq1f3xjyMuU07-5JYmNvDu1C9MTl3QN9iWVWU/s400/Aloha_Family_0611%255B1%255D.jpg" /></a><br />- <strong>Family Time.</strong> Dylan will have a chance to hang out with all of his cousins, who live in other states, this summer. We've already had some time with his "Arizona cousins" and it made my heart sing to see them all together. Those kids are much older but they just dote on their littlest relative. Even the too-cool fourteen-year-old vied for time to bounce his baby cuz around. Dylan will also get to see more of each of his grandparents, who he adores. Each one brings something special and different to his life and I know he will always cherish the time he spends with them, being the center of the universe for hours at a time.<br /><br />- <strong>Celebrations and Mini-adventures.</strong> Father's Day, Independence Day, M's birthday, a weekend at one of our <a href="http://www.crystalcovestatepark.com/">favorite spots</a>, camping at the beach, the wedding of dear friends - all moments to get together with loved ones and let loose a bit.<br /><br />- <strong>Making progress on my neglected To Do list.</strong> Some things I am dedicated to accomplishing in the next several weeks include: exercising and losing weight; making our back patio area more inviting with shade, plants, and decorations; researching and buying a fuel efficient four-door car to replace my old Honda coupe, since we'll need to fit a car seat in there when Dylan goes to daycare in September; painting and finish decorating Dylan's room; and creating a <a href="http://adoption.about.com/cs/legalissues/g/lifebook.htm">Life Book</a> for the boy.<br /><br />- And lastly, <strong>casting off my ghostly pallor.</strong> Okay, I know. I know. I know. I know it's all an illusion, but I really DO <span style="FONT-STYLE: italic">look</span> healthier with a bit of a tan.<br /><br />I remember a time in childhood when summer seemed too long. I got bored and began to itch to go back to school. My, how times change. </div>Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-14135497146854064622011-06-21T11:35:00.000-07:002011-06-21T21:19:13.111-07:00Irrational ExuberanceDylan is growing up so fast. It's hard to keep up with him, here and around the house.<br /><br />Before we adopted, I thought I'd miss not having a kid who inherited my biological traits and tendencies. Something that surprises me is how delightful I find many of the ways Dylan is <em>different</em> from me. One simple example is that I am definitely NOT a morning person. I set my alarm at least 20 minutes early because I know I will need to hit the snooze button a few times. (Praise my understanding bed-mate!) Once I finally do manage to throw off the covers, I typically trudge heavy-footed and sleepy-eyed around the house. My assistant at work could probably tell you I'm not very friendly, or even communicative, until about 10 a.m.<br /><br />My son, on the other hand, usually wakes up with a huge, sunny smile. When I come into his room, he's often already dancing at the rails of his crib. He's most cooperative and easy-going in the three hours or so before his late-morning nap.<br /><br />Fortunately, Dylan's sunny disposition in the a.m. is having a positive influence on me. I now look forward to his greeting each morning, and especially to a few moments of snuggling in bed with him and his daddy before starting the rush of the day.<br /><br />Though I am a generally happy person, and I was even voted "Most Optimistic" by my high school class, it would be a real stretch to describe my personality as "bubbly." But that's what Dylan is.<br /><br />He just exudes joy.<br /><br />And I just love that about him. Yes, some of it is undoubtedly typical toddler energy. But I think there's more to it than that. I think he inherited much of his exuberance from V. But sadly, as M's observed, a hard life has already dulled much of her shine.<br /><br />It is one of my greatest hopes and challenges as a parent to help Dylan preserve his wonderful, positive disposition. I hope he won't become world-wary, and that there will always be great, unstifleable joy in his life.<br /><br />(Of course, I don't expect that it will always be running around half-naked with a toothbrush that will bring on such irrational exuberance...At least I hope not.)<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6uIB-1DZd-OwT3S6xmy2M1nheCwxqdTQVMcBbUnSrZyJIc7p8w6UO2Jc3rOJl_k_W8miSIVUjflwMtm3KUQKcVVolq-MWaIPiBsN-He3BDjKV9hk6fABC_MhrCw5XEQiqci44pI2LCQ9o/s1600/D+brushing+teeth+Hawaiian+style+0611.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 266px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5620749220635208706" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6uIB-1DZd-OwT3S6xmy2M1nheCwxqdTQVMcBbUnSrZyJIc7p8w6UO2Jc3rOJl_k_W8miSIVUjflwMtm3KUQKcVVolq-MWaIPiBsN-He3BDjKV9hk6fABC_MhrCw5XEQiqci44pI2LCQ9o/s400/D+brushing+teeth+Hawaiian+style+0611.jpg" /></a><br /><br />If you have kids who were adopted, how are they like and dissimilar from you? How do you feel about it?Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-81777885458393344372011-05-07T21:00:00.001-07:002011-05-07T21:42:30.292-07:00For Another MotherDear V.,<br /><br />I don't know whether you ever read this blog. I hope you do. Have you received the emails and texts we've sent? How about the Happy (Birth)Mother's Day card Dylan made for you? There is so much I want to share with you, and I'll put a bit of it here now. <br /><br />Tonight at dinner I talked with M. a bit about my ambivalance toward Mother's Day. For so many years, it was a tough day for me. All of the mothers who have lost their children, or still long for their children, are never far from my mind. Of course, I think about you and wonder how you are feeling.<br /><br />Before Dylan was born, you said that you thought our happiness about finally bringing our child home would help you cope with the pain of your loss. I want you to know that since you placed Dylan into our family, every day is special for me. I don't need breakfast in bed or flowers to enjoy this holiday. His sweet, wet kisses are the most precious Mother's Day gifts I can imagine. <br /><br />We haven't heard from you in several months and I miss you and worry about you. But, I feel like we are in touch in some way every day. That's because your beauty, intelligence, good humor, and determination are all so clearly growing in our son. <br /><br />On this day and always, we are thinking of you and sending lots of love.<br /><br />xoxox<br />KristinKristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2141810784907213632.post-19816602059701675602011-04-23T22:26:00.000-07:002011-04-25T21:20:33.077-07:00The Cat's MeowThe small, black-and-white cat paces beneath our bedroom window. Her plaintive meows keep me awake, thinking about mothers and children. Thinking about maternal instincts, broken hearts, and people who do what they think is best for the little ones.<br /><br />She is a feral cat who had kittens beneath our house. After a couple of attempts foiled by Momma-cat's ferocity, we were able to capture the kittens. Three adorable little balls of fur. They are old enough that they will drink milk from a syringe we offer, and after a few hours, they are purring in our arms. We hope, we believe, there is a very good chance they will be adopted into a loving family after we take them to the SPCA.<br /><br />I don't want to overly anthropomorphize or make assumptions about what this little cat is thinking and feeling. But I can tell that Momma-cat knows her babies are in here. She doesn't know or care of our good intentions. Even days after they were taken from her, she hangs close to our house. Though I truly believe we have done the right thing, not just for ourselves, or for our neighborhood. Her offspring will likely live longer, more luxurious lives than they would scrounging for food in the alley and dodging coyotes and having litter after litter themselves...if they survive the pound. <br /><br />But all I can think of is how hard Momma's worked to birth her babes and care for them in the wild for weeks. Whatever she's trying to communicate to them now as she wails beneath our window, it conveys her deep, deep unbreakable connection to her children.Kristinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18148373432867881131noreply@blogger.com1